In about 18 weeks this baby is going to have to come out. That has been the main theme running through my head for the last week. I am simultaneously thrilled at the prospect of finally meeting my son and utterly weirded out by the idea of giving birth to him. I know that homo sapiens have been giving birth for at least 200,000 years but that gives me no comfort. As a student I have seen about a dozen or so vaginal deliveries (some with third degree perineal tears and if you don't know what that is then consider yourself fortunate and don't investigate any further, trust me you are better off not knowing) and I have been able to watch one cesarean section from start to finish. I have to say that neither option looks appealing at this point.
Part of my apprehension stems from issues with my back and a large herniated disc. Over the last two years I have been able to keep the pain under pretty good control through a series of facet injections, physical therapy, and exercise. The last five and a half months of pregnancy I have been good at keeping active and doing prenatal yoga two to three times a week, which I really believe has helped me last this long virtually pain free. Still, my back is starting to feel the toll of being pregnant and sitting in class two days a week. I worry about how bad it can get in the next few months.
This makes me wonder what kind of delivery I am going to be able to have, natural or cesarean. Each one has it's own set or risks because of my back. At this point my OB isn't even sure as we need to consult with my orthopedic surgeon again and see how my back is doing closer to delivery time. Now for anyone who knows me at all it is no secret that I am a planner and not having some sort of direction for delivery is causing me some significant anxiety.
For now all I can do is try to stay as fit as I can, both physically and mentally so I can handle whatever does happen when this baby decides it is time to join us out here in the real world.
Right now it is raining pretty heavily and I can feel him moving around so much. I think he is going to like Portland weather, just like his dad.
