.thanksgiving.

Today Leif and I have decided to celebrate Thanksgiving by spending it by ourselves.  We are going to go on a hike, eat Singaporean Chicken Rice for lunch, take a nap, stop by one of his coworker's house for a bit (not sure how long I will be able to last there), and then eat a French take on Thanksgiving dishes at a restaurant we have been wanting to try.

This is the first year since we've been together that we have not had Thanksgiving with my family.  Actually, it is the first Thanksgiving of my life that I haven't been with my family.  Our decision to be alone this year had nothing to do with not wanting to be with our loved ones but everything to do with the fact that we do not feel particularly celebratory this holiday season.  I think this is a sentiment that many of the people who read this blog can relate to.

I want to emphasize that neither of us are walking around in a haze of self pity today.  Although I think it would be perfectly acceptable for us to do so if that was how we were feeling.   But we aren't.*  But we aren't, at least not today.  We just want to be alone.  Alone, together.  

I'm trying to think of all the things I have to be thankful for.  They are numerous and wonderful and I truly know how fortunate I am.  I just wish I had a five month old George here with us instead of an eight month old urn.

.L.

Maybe this will sound hollow.  But it isn't meant to.  

Happy Thanksgiving.  I hope it is gentle on all of you.

*I actually chuckled out loud as I wrote that statement.  There are so many days I walk around in self pity that to write it out that I am not feeling that way today looks kind of absurd.  So I went ahead and amended it to more accurately reflect reality.