stupid

I don't really expect random people out in the world to care about the fact that my son died.  I would like them to have some small amount empathy but I don't really expect them to care.  I mean, people are all wrapped up in their own lives and most of the time there isn't a lot of room for anyone else.  I get that, I really do and I can't totally fault them for that.  I'm often guilty of the same thing.

But...

Yesterday someone at work asked me for the third time if this baby was my first.  The first two times she asked I told her, "No, I had a son last year who died right after he was born."  This last time I said "Yup," out loud while in my head I was saying, "Fuck You!"  Is it really that fucking difficult to remember something like someone sharing that they had a child who died?  Really?  I remember that you like to go on a walk everyday at lunch but you can't remember that I've told you twice already that I lost a baby.

Thanks for that, lady.