Monday, August 23, 2010

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The day after I took my exam Leif and I went to see an exhibit called Mummies of the World at the local science museum.  It was quite a broad collection of both intentional and unintentional mummies from Egypt, Peru, Europe, and Oceania.  Of course there were many of the usual mummies on display that we have all seen at one time or another or in some B movie.  Wealthy Egyptians with their mummified cats and the like.  But what surprised me the most and was honestly something that I was not expecting to see there was the large proportion of infant mummies in the collection.

The oldest mummy they had on display, and in fact one of the oldest ever found, was that of a ten month old child.  Named the Detmold Child, at 6,500 years old it predates King Tut by a thousand years.  Found in Peru, mummyologists (apparently this is a real word and trademarked, no less) have used CT images to ascertain that he/she had contracted pneumonia and that it had, in conjunction with a serious heart defect, ultimately caused his/her death.  The child was wrapped in linen and an amulet (also discovered through CT scans) was placed around his/her neck.  These wrappings have not been removed or disturbed but a replica of the amulet is on display next to the mummy. 

Nearly all of the infant mummies they had on display were very obviously well cared for in their deaths by whatever surviving family members had buried them.  It touched me to see that even in times when infant and child loss was so much more commonplace than it is now those children were still grieved and honored. 

After we walked through the exhibition Leif told me that sometime in the near future he wants to have a service for George.  We never had one and we haven't talked about having one in months.  When he died we were too unsure of what we wanted to do and who we wanted to be there.  We still don't know the answer to these questions.  All I know and something I was quick to tell him is that although I would be supportive of having a service of some sort I could not give up his ashes.  I'm not ready for that and I am not sure when I ever will be.

Despite what it may seem from reading the above ramblings of an insomniac who is writing this at 12:41 in the morning while waiting for the sleeping aid to kick in, the visit wasn't all about death and sadness.  In fact, seeing the things we saw in that exhibit didn't make me any sadder than I normally am.  The mere fact that I was with Leif, holding his hand in a museum in the middle of a work week, made the day a good one.

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I think that the smart thing to do would be to wait until morning when I have a mind not beginning to feel the effects of sleep aids to reread this before posting.  But, I'm not going to.  I kind of want to see if it makes as much sense to me in the morning as it does right now.


Now, it is off to bed and hopefully I won't have to toss and turn too long before sleep takes me. 

4 comments:

  1. Services and other details are obviously such personal things. We had a funeral for Micah and I was so pleased we did - it really helped to make him, and the loss of him, real to our friends and family. It was wonderful to be surrounded by all these people that love us, love Micah, and wanted nothing more than to support us and comfort us and grieve over our baby boy with us. I hope whatever you guys decide to do is just perfect and exactly what you need to do to honor your son.

    The museum sounds very interesting and your first picture is beautiful. Hope you were eventually able to get some good sleep.

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  2. Thanks Jenn.

    I am happy that you had a service for Micah that was a good fit for you and your family. I think you are right on about how a service makes the loss feel more real to those who were not physically part of his life (and death).

    It is such a personal thing to decide on. Ultimately I think that whatever we do it will be something that I hope helps us really have some sort of closure (not that I think there really can be closure with the death of a child).

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  3. This post is just so moving and beautiful, and I love all the photos. I can sense all the feelings and emotions flowing through your words, the missing, the love, how you and Leif lean upon each other. Thank you s much for sharing.

    A service would be a wonderful thing when you are ready. Take all the time you need. And you don't have to give up George's ashes if you don't want to. Or you can keep some with you. Everyone will find their way and make their choices. I am sure you will come to a beautiful decision eventually, there is no rush. ((hugs))

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  4. You and Leif both look strangely at home astride the camel! And mummyologist?! That is such a fantastic word.

    There is something very touching about those cherished infant mummies. Wrapped up with so much care.

    I agree with Janis, there is no rush. Just do what feels right for you, your husband and your son. You certainly don't have to give up George's ashes. I still have my G's, two years later and with no plans to scatter them or anything of that sort.

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